Fickle and Annoying

I'm on my nerves. Yes, me. I am on my own nerves.


I find my fickleness to be annoying. Less than a month ago, I wrote a short book summary and was quite pleased with it until I opened it last week.

The tight, pointed summary no longer read tightly or pointedly. In fact, it seemed to ramble. Had my memory failed me or am I experiencing momentary delusional periods?

I don't know.

This isn't a one-time occurrence. I often am certain I've written the best line/paragraph/book in my power only to review it at a later date and find it mediocre at best. Again, my fickleness annoys me.

Sorry, I don't have a lesson in this. Don't have a "this is normal and useful and makes you a great writer" slant.

I haven't learned to adore everything I've ever written. It doesn't matter if I wrote something five years ago or yesterday, my feelings on it change. Sometimes I'll read something, hate it, then read it a month later and love it again. I used to think I'll know I've "made it" when I can consistently go back to my writing and evaluate it as good. But now?

Now I think I'll always be this way.

If you're a writer, do you deal with this too?  Do you find your fickle feelings about your writing to be annoying? Or do your feelings remain consistent when you review your work?

Have a fabulous Monday!

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